Fragility

I was back in Malaysia 2 months ago and now back to reality. Back to where I should be..working and being who I want to be. My trip back home was great. Time was short and I spent as much time as I could with my family. Managed to queeze a trip to Bangkok. Our family trips had never been this fun. We have never had so much adventure to walk and shop. It was great. There were some friends which i did not manage to catch up with . I wish them well and I hope to see them as soon as I can. I know that we will all enventually loose contact. Life has to go on and everyone has to lead thier own lives. But then again, I wish otherwise.

I made up my mind as to where i want to be for the next few years. Things had been rough at home with the politiccal issues and turning back there would never bring me anywhere but to limit my desires to grow in my career. My trip back didn't just bring me fun and made my mind clearer. I realised how fragile life was. Many relatives aged and 2 years felt like 10 years to them. They aged so much, so frail...i couldn't believe it.

Today, Customer XX passed away. I felt deeply moved by it. XX died suddenly at a gathering with friends apparently. He did have some heart problems but was well controled by medications. This day, four years ago...was also the day grand dad left us. I remembered I was having fun at a camp when he was critical in the hospital. I visited him before i left for camp and never spoke to him after that ever again. He progessively got worse in 1 week and left after that. I still remembered the last few words he spoke to me. Somehow when I heard what he said to me.. it remained in my memory. I knew..someday I would want to remember it.

He too, Left suddenly...without any warning. He wasn't taking as much medications as XX did. But everything happened so quickly like as if all parts of his organs started to shut one by one... I still think of him now and then...