Life should be as beautiful as sunset

Today I attended an activity which was meant to refresh my knowledge required for my profession. I would not say I have completely wiped out all my knowledge on this particular topic or that all that I have learnt tonight is totally new to me. But.. instead I realized something which have never occured to me before...


I have said before, tomorrow would be 2 months to my registration or should i say...2 months to the day which I have to be completely responsible with my decisions in practice. And from tonight's activity, I realized how far I am from who i want to be. I see that I am so far away from the other people in the same room. Well...if anyone would understand what i am trying to say. There are somethings that feels new and unfamiliar to me.. The ambitious part of me...is struggling to reveal itself...

It was not the contents of the activity which made me feel this way...I don't know what exactly. There were a million things i would like to bring up, A million things i would like to ask...but yet i let it hide inside me... afraid that my innocence would be some sorta stupidity or sillyness. I know it might not be that way...instead it might be some sorta benefit to others. In fact the older ones might expect someone fresh like me so say somehting...but i did not. IBut..I did want to say something..~!

I have not been reading any materials eversince I made it in my last assesment. I know very well...this shouldn't be the way for me. Instead, i have been indulging into hobbies. Started some creative work..to bring back my creative self, which I have locked away for years... ever since I begun in Science. YEs.. now that i recall..eversince i chose this path, I have put aside creative thoughts and intentions, thinking that it is a waste of time, and it is time consuming.Telling myself over and over again...'don't waste time on these things..i should be reading my pahrmacology instead'! Well..lets see...how long my interest in it will last...

Been such a long and tiring day....

Right now... this is where I want to be.

How True is this?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

You Are 54% Independent

Overall, you're a pretty independent woman. You don't follow trends just to fit in. You've got your own cool thing going on, though you sometimes still care too much about what other's think.

Are You an Independent Woman?

Your True Love's Name Is

Donald H.

What's Your True Love's Name?

You Are A Gold Girl

You're dependable and hard working. You never miss a deadline - and you're never late. You have a clear sense of right and wrong. You're very detail oriented. You get frustrated when your friends are sloppy - or when they don't follow through. You're on top of things, and you wish that everyone else was!

What Color Girl Are You?

pharmacist to be..

I am about to register as a pharmacist in 2.5 months time~!! Everyday when i give out scripts, I actually watch the dates pass. I tell people what the dates were. I am actually watching the clock tick. I should seriously finish up my 7 HMR reports. I have done 1 and there's 6 more to go. I can't seem to start!

I am starting to handle things better now...then before. More confidence. Encountered 2 difficult situations today and yesterday. I was left to handle it alone. The downside of this is that I am obliged to do it well!

My pharmacy is basically a place where people seek for medical advice when they are lazy or didn't want to go through the hassel to see the doctor. My boss is like an acting doctor in this area. Everyone knows each other and thier stories. And after working in this place for 10 months, most people know me pretty well. People will come to my preceptor for nearly everything they can get without seeing a doctor. And because of the status he established in this community, I am obliged not to let them down too. The 2 incidences I encounterd thought me well. All the running around for nothing but to ensure they are not dissapointed and also maximising health care.

I tried my very best to make sure everyone is happy. I made it.... But i was exhausted by the end of the day. I intended to go to the gym for 1 hr to work it all out...but i left after 15 mins.

To make things worse... FATTY was being such a pain! I really hate her. I know it sounds harsh...but she really have some serious mental issues. I don't see the possiblity of her registering at all. If she really do... anyone can be a blardy pharmacist!!!

The clock is ticking every second... my time to be responsible of everything I do is coming close. I am telling myself I can do this... I can